Stepping Into the New Year

We were catapulted, pushed, shoved, forced into the 2008 New Year.

We really didn't want to go. We wanted to have a do over. A rewind and let's do this a different way. A different outcome. But it could not happen.

So, we went forward.

We didn't have a plan, a focus, a direction, a vision. We just wanted to survive a life without a husband, a son-in-law, a best friend, a brother-in-law.

We've done all the "firsts". Mostly together.

A room was reinhabited, trips were taken, the families reunited frequently, tears cried, a house bought, a job secured, belongings retrived, memories reviewed, a home established, traditions begun, a kitchen and bathroom renovated, a race run, brothers and cousins held close, friendships appreciated, new friends established, and a first year without done.

This year I feel like I'm stepping lightly into 2009.

Delicately.

A whole year in front of us. A year of possibilities and potential and great expectations. But, quietly and prayerfully approached.